Hey Everyone!
Its me here. Was just about to go to bed and wanted to say something to everyone that I KNOW reads this. I love you all..Mom, Dad, Robin, Ken, Emily and maybe even Don. You guys are all defind in my book as family. You all have been with me through the heart of it all.
Its been a week now that I have been working and I love it. Cleaning rooms is just great! No, seriously. Housekeepers all just got a pay raise to $7.50. I know that it isnt much but its something and its better then nothing right? I know that in about 3 months that I will get another one. I still have some money from when I left John and so Im just adding to it. Well not really I still have alot of things to do here like get the insurance changed over from Washington to Michigan and open a bank account here. I hear that everything else is ok with everyone else. Hunter and Mason are doing GREAT! Its so weird to work like 7 to 8 hours a day and then come home and cook dinner and give the kids a bath and get them ready for bed. My day is just full. I love it! Well, I have to get up at 7:30am so I better go to bed. Love you all! MUAH!

Housekeeping...
I know its been awhile now but I love the job. My boss Mary thinks I'm crazy and maybe I am but i love it. The women I work with are my age and are super nice. Everything seems great for the time being. Its kinda nice to get away from the boys sometimes. I feel like such a bad mom saying that. I do however come home on my lunch and say hi and whatever.
Kyle is my manny (male nanny) hes really good with them. Hes plaining on working with Hunter to get him potty trained for me. THANK YOU GOD!! Mason is also doing well.
Johns mom called me today asking to make arrangements for John to come see the kids and see if she can take them for the afternoon while John is here. I guess hes coming the on the 7th of May. Grr...I dont want Hunter to get attached then have John leave again. And why if John wants to see the kids why doesnt he just get my cell number and call me to make arrangements himself? Of course mommy and daddy come to the save him. I just want this f-ing divorce over. I was really scared of losing family because of this and in some what I am but thats ok now. Now I feel that I dont want them in my life. I know I have kids with John but I also know that I didnt grow up with grandparents in my life and I turned out ok. I mean my parents are still there. I have to think about whats good for my boys and what kind of people do I want in there lives and right now with things being so crazy as it is I just think its not a good idea for John to be here. He needs to worry about getting this divorce finalized. He still hasnt called or e-mailed me to check to see if they are ok. What a loser! I bet hes going to make me file too. He can never just handle business because I was always the one that paid and wrote out the checks to pay bills not him. I dont know. I dont wanna talk about him anymore. I just f-ing hate him. Its just that plan and simple. Well, its getting late and I have to get up in the morning to work! YAY I HAVE A JOB!!! I have a place to go that I know needs me and thats a nice feeling.
By the way: Housekeeping isnt a easy job so please tip them. Just a buck or some change is all. Have a great night/day. MUAH-Me

Yeah I know its been a long time...
BUT I HAVE A JOB NOW!!! im working at a hotel as a housekeeping. I cant say where because of the pot head people in Belleville.
So, you ask what the hell has Megan been up too? Let me tell you...woo...First of all I'm not talking to Bryan anymore. Hes a loser that was using me. He lied to me from the start didnt see it or didnt care. Everything he was telling me he was also telling a another woman named Tammy.
Al and I broke up. Sadly but true. We are still talking just like we would any other time. He had good reasons. I am still married and hes going to Iraq for a year. Blah blah blah. I'm calling it that we are on a break. We still are talking about maybe seeing how things go when he gets back and out of the Army.
I got my own place its nice, kinda small but I can afford it and thats all that matters in the end. Once again cant tell you where.
Its getting late and I have to get to bed I got to get up for work in the morning. WOOOHOO!!

Home Sweet Home...
Talk about a long time...Geez what day is it? Thats right its Easter. HAPPY EASTER everyone! I know that most of you have no freakin idea whats going on so let me recap on my life. I make it safe to Michigan all in one piece. I got into a fight with my mother in law more then half way to Michigan. I lived with my friend Tami for 2 weeks and then found a little apartment thats a little more then 900 sq feet. huge bathroom, walk in closet, washer and dryer room all the good stuff. Im in hiding from John and his friends and family. Alot of people wanna kick my ass and Johns the one that wants the divorce. im not giving out my address unless i know thats its safe. People arent even going to know where I live. I havent found a job yet and I start looking on Monday. (tomorrow) I have been drinking about everyday and just about started smoking again because of the stress. Well, people im ok and the boys are good I'll send pictures soon. Love you all.